" Youre Right, Im Right Whats Next ? "...Indifference Prevails !

Looking at my fingers, feeling so gloomy and sad. I realized that fingers is like human. Fingers comes with different form, shape and length. Nothings even. Totally different from one another.

Sometimes no matter how you prove yourself, no matter how you try to please other, specially people who were close and dear to you. There will be no effect. Stereo type casting that if you are less capacity. It simply means less attention, no appreciation, but full of distractions.

Conflict of interest? Maybe... Indifference of views and opinions?... Slightly .....
superiority and authority ?.... Probably.

Writing for me is one way of expressing my own point of view. My objective is to observe proper ethics all the time. It means not to promote nor destroy a certain product, service,people etc.. Everything I wrote and published must be in accordance from my own dealings of endeavor and experience.

I am not expecting anything in return. Bad feedback, good feedback will be fine. Gratification and acceptance is just an added bonus for me. I will be happy to be accepted by anybody. I believe, my writings will be my legacy when my time come.

I am not perfect. Grammatically and technically. I have lapses. I have shortcomings and I have lack of orientations, I admit. But It doesnt mean I am less capable. To be responsible is very broad to explain. Knowing the limit, doing a research, thinking appropriate terms and editing no matter if it takes forever needs to be a part of every subject. I believe thats my pattern.

I cannot justify myself. Reasoning is different from being arrogant. Often times, Indifference was hard to manage. I would rather isolate myself and makes myself busy in more productive ways than being visible and later develop conflict due to each others "Indifference".

" A Mystery Called... Love "

” Yes I believe He is the right guy for Me.. Is He?
” We are compatible in every way “… Are you Sure?
“He brings out the best in me “…….And So ?
” I cannot live without him ” …. Why is he holding your breath?
" He completes Me ” …. Are you a Puzzle or What ?



Well before, hearing all  those words makes me sick.  For me It is all bloopers and full of never ending promises. Dreaming of a happy ending story is too far from reality. ” And they live happily ever after ” can only be happen in books and movies.Of course I am not sour graping ..Most of men do anything and everything to please a lady. Somehow as time progresses, Men changed and the woman behind them will be the least of their priority. That is totally absurd !!.. I believe of what I feel and what I see. It is hard to justify a fact without a proof. That is why, I keep on telling myself to hold on of what I believe.
Everything change when I met this wonderful man named ” Arcturus”.
It was a whirlwind affair. Him as my phone pal without any idea how he looks like. We were phone line friends for five years.
After 5 years finally  we decided to meet at last !!!  The location was at Tia Maria in Greenbelt.
Upon entering, I saw this thin guy, not so cute sitting down in front of the bar. Well I guess he is the one. He said  “Hi are you Che? ” a simple nod confirming my name. It was plain getting to know each other moment,  typical conversation after we called it a night.
Our Phoneline friendship continous,    another 3 years passed and we saw each other again. Still no attraction.
Being a friend to him even tru phone, We were able to share each other secrets. In times of sorrows, we gave advices. We do not hesitate to tell each others fault and try to work things up with our partner. That time we are into different relationship.

It was a clash. The communication stop.. He was able to work abroad as seaman. I graduated and earned my college degree finding the right career for me. Few months passed until one day I received an overseas call from him inviting me together with his family  to visit him in Bataan. Their ship was bound to discharge oil.  It was a mix feeling of surprise and confusion. I did not say no but I did not say yes also. 3 days before the invitation, weather is terrible. Super typhoon hits luzon and huge damaged were not in control.  I prayed, ask for his enlightment. Asking him to please give me a clear sign if I will go or not.  I believe travel via sea will not be ideal because all the departures were being cancel . There was no easy other way to go there except via sea.
Waking up the following day fancied my eyes. It was a sunny beautiful morning. Everything was bright and clear. I prayed again, asking God if this is his way of telling me to go. I asked again another sign. Seeing anything white that is unussual part of the house. Then I went downstairs. Well everything look so familiar. It is our house anyway.. but wait., there is something being left at the door. I checked it and obviously  it was a PLDT phone bill.   What a great way to start a day..suddenly I realized, hey ! the bill was inside white envelope. Without hesitation, I proceed.
It was a beautiful memory. knowing his family, fellow crew makes me happy. He told me to wait for him. His contract will take 6 more months to finish.  Assuring me of something which I do not believe. 2 months after… An advice that their ship will be scrap and all crews temporarily needs to take a vacation.
It was unexpected. Within a blink of an eye, I was overwhelmed,  tearfully walking down the isle with my mom and brother. At the end of it, there is this man waiting for me. Showing to everyone how much he love me. I believe God was with us. The ceremony was very sacred and everybody reflects happiness and support.. It was a dream come true…
11 years passed. Still I am sleeping beside the man of my dreams… ” Arcturus” I am so happy to be your wife…
I Love you so Dearly……

" Cravings for Sweets, Makes my Morning Complete "

Making my Life Sweeter....

" Craving For Sweets, Makes My Morning Complete..." Im a woman who is happily married for almost 13 years to a Magician. Both of us fond of discovering unique and pleasant experie nce no matter what it is, curiosity to find the right answer in every question makes our wellness fulfilled. I am certified proud mother of 3 children. Not a disciplinary type but a hands on mom who always ensure kids welfare. A career woman who work as a Professional Event Emcee.Talking is my business. I love speaking, showing my skills, I want to be famous and be known in my most creative way. I love lotion. It comforts me. I cannot live without it. I have “Bantot” It is a lousy old pillow for almost 10 years. I bring it anywhere. It makes me feel at home. I crave for spicy food but I do not eat beef minimal of pork meat. I love tofu with lots of onion and jalapeno mix with soy sauce and vinegar as condiments. I love wearing high heels shoes. It makes me feel sexy. I love hats, I put beads, rhinestones and ruffles with it. My color preference, it should be earth colors but more of brown shades, tarnished green and old rose. I love vintage, old but colorful decors. Country style theme fits my personality. Im fond of stickers and magnets. Even my husband magic props and kids school essentials, i put stickers on it. Im a feline person. I love cat. I possess cat instinct wherein I have the ability communicate with them. I cannot sleep without the help of my generic diphenhydramine. I makes me relax resulting to a better sleep. I hate being fat. It lessen my confidence. Being fit makes me fab. However, Very Sweet Desserts liven up my day. I love sunflowers. I am very spontaneous and working very hard to plant them. Often failure but I wont quit. My advocacy is to become a "Sunflower Ambassadress of The Philippines" Im scared of worms....My heartbeat increases resulting to a major scream and fast run. Im sooo afraid of ghost. My imagination haunt me all the time. I love listening to AM radio while sewing my gowns and costumes. It keeps me updated at the same time a productive sewer. I am not a brand person. I do patronize ukay-ukay, tiangge, surplus and Divisoria. As long it will fit my fashion sense and of course the price must be cheap. When Im doing hosting, Iced Tea is my best companion. It keeps me going. No sodas please. Im hyper acidic. I dont experience pedicure and manicure inside the salon. My nails kept short and nothing. I do not comb or brush my hair for 10 years except if salon artist need to fix my hair for a show.. Ironic but its true. My hair strand is very sensitive maybe because of my thyroid problem. I do not go to parlor. It makes no sense…